Nostalgia

I tend to be a person whom seems to need a great deal of reflection. Not necessarily through my own memories although at the end of the day I think are thoughts and feelings swirl back from our own experiences. It can be easier to take my self out of the equation and view my problem like a film, or a television show, glance at pictures and think what if and what did; even if I'm in them or not, and I want to jump into a skull, nestle into the memory banks, and crack it open like a chestnut - what were you thinking? What are you thinking now? Where do you find yourself naturally wandering To? Whom do you find yourself wandering to? Please tell me. I want to figure it all out before it's too late. But how can anyone or anything figure out everything.